To my forever friend, ADW, on her (almost) birthday.
I Celebrate You
Years ago, I locked you away
Your heart in my heart so it’d stay
I burned your pictures
Your memory I wouldn’t share
But in the end, to the world
that wasn’t fair.
I kept you to for myself
Our secret moments
I etched you into my mind and body,
the way I needed to remember you,
And desecrated the rest.
Now I’m here to share you,
to revive you.
Beautiful girl, in my heart you’ll stay
I’ll carry you in my inside me
though you’ve passed away
I’ll talk of your eyes behind glasses so cute,
And how your full lips pouted perfectly
when you were afraid of the truth.
Your pain was my pain,
Though a true warrior you are
Never went down without a fight,
and you never ran far.
I miss holding your hand
and the smell of your skin,
how you giggled and teased
when we were flirting with men.
Most of all, I am grateful, for the truths
for the vulnerability we shared,
For teaching me to dare greatly
because, no matter what, you cared.
I wish I could have saved you
and prolonged your life,
But now I must go on, living mine.
I could never let you go,
unconditional love always lasts,
and bringing you into my future
Can unshackle both of us
and honor a beautiful past.
ADW, 2/8/1984-9/17/1998. I’ll Never Let You Go.